As you may or may not know I strive to be a good person I strive to not conform but to be open minded and accepting of all others. Lately I have been feeling more lost than ever. I personally dont like the way alcohol makes me feel and I dont believe that I need other substances to make me feel good. For my body this is a fake happiness that I know would wear off. That being said I have never and plan to never partake in any substances that have not been prescribed. I guess I more stick to the kid values that I am not supposed to take those which is okay with me because I just dont think i could handle them to be honest. I dont judge those whom do but I have been feeling so much pressure that many are hard on me especially for not drinking alcohol. This pressure crashes over me so much as that it makes me feel like I am not included into the gay community. I have been feeling really lost lately and honestly just wish there was a place that accepted me for me. Before I was of age people were like okay you just want to follow the law but now it just feels like I can't be me anywhere. I thought I could be me in the gay community but I have to trade being judged for liking guys to being judged for not following gay social norm. For a group that fights so hard to be discriminated against from my own personal experience if you dont quite fit one of the set molds then you are discriminated against by the group. I have felt this driscrimination not only toward me but also those whom are Bi, Trans, or those whom just arent stereo typical. One thing I can say this world knows how to take people who care about things and harden their skin.
Sorry for the rant but I needed a place to just let it all out.